today i decided oh well –  it is what it is – and the only way out is to stand up, brush off, and get moving in the right direction. so i’m writing this. 

i’ve been told i’ve an interesting way of putting things. they’re all very mundane things really. no rocket science here. more like how-to-get-up-and-do-it-again, i guess. i AM here to live out loud (i know this, though it’s been hard to tell lately…) and what better way to let the world know i’m back than announcing it, all-official-like, right here. 

so, yes life exploded in my face and i’m not anywhere near where i thought i was supposed to be. it’s okay. time for a new course of action, that’s all. i’m starting with the tried and true. did my exercises this morning, and i’ve been cooking all day (cuban style roast pork, homemade black beans, rice, 2 chickens (for quesadillas tomorrow) chicken stock (for the rice), and pound cake with peaches, raspberries and whipped cream – thought about making deviled eggs and potato salad for mid-week consumption, but hey, enough is enough, right? even if there are five of us to eat all this, cooking is relaxing only until it’s exhausting…).

i’m allowing myself to enjoy a bottle of Merlot (yep! the whole thing should be gone by bedtime!) in the middle of a rainy Sunday afternoon. i’m not moving furniture or boxes today and i’m done cleaning right after the last load of laundry is dry. i may do absolutely nothing tonight!…

maybe tomorrow i’ll start taking my vitamins again

My ex-husband died – very unexpectedly – three weeks ago tomorrow. We were married twenty five years. I’m just shocked that he’s gone. So aren’t our children. I’m sad for him and I’m sad for them. 53 is too young to go…or so it seems…

I like to believe everything happens for a reason. This one’s going to take awhile to comprehend.

I am glad for one thing: he was a man that lived his life out loud – and he taught me much about enjoying the moment…

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