time moves oddly when you’re so completely stressed you can’t think straight. (or for me it does anyway.) i was surprised to see it’s been three months since my last post. life DID change in an instant and truth-be-told i’ve spent the time between then and now being…#1…very busy and…#2…feeling sorry for myself. not the “why me?” kind-of sorry for myself, the “holy cow! how did my life get here!” kind.
today i decided oh well – it is what it is – and the only way out is to stand up, brush off, and get moving in the right direction. so i’m writing this.
i’ve been told i’ve an interesting way of putting things. they’re all very mundane things really. no rocket science here. more like how-to-get-up-and-do-it-again, i guess. i AM here to live out loud (i know this, though it’s been hard to tell lately…) and what better way to let the world know i’m back than announcing it, all-official-like, right here.
so, yes life exploded in my face and i’m not anywhere near where i thought i was supposed to be. it’s okay. time for a new course of action, that’s all. i’m starting with the tried and true. did my exercises this morning, and i’ve been cooking all day (cuban style roast pork, homemade black beans, rice, 2 chickens (for quesadillas tomorrow) chicken stock (for the rice), and pound cake with peaches, raspberries and whipped cream – thought about making deviled eggs and potato salad for mid-week consumption, but hey, enough is enough, right? even if there are five of us to eat all this, cooking is relaxing only until it’s exhausting…).
i’m allowing myself to enjoy a bottle of Merlot (yep! the whole thing should be gone by bedtime!) in the middle of a rainy Sunday afternoon. i’m not moving furniture or boxes today and i’m done cleaning right after the last load of laundry is dry. i may do absolutely nothing tonight!…
maybe tomorrow i’ll start taking my vitamins again 
